My dear Jasmin

My dear Jasmin,

I know that if i had not met you, I would not be the person I am today.

I have told you this various of times, but when I stop and think of how I am capable of smiling, I always remember the sweet words you have told me once. You took me away from the reality that I had feared and filled me with the memorable joys that lay within the memories of our childhood. Even when we don’t say a word to each other, we never have the need the question why we aren’t together. You’ve seen my best smiles, my most embarrassing moment, and the fakes of smiles. Now the hands of the clock are ticking, and  my time with you is passing. I do not fear that the bond with you will fade, but will remain the same, but when i think about the distance I already miss you.


Everything falls in to place..

I wrote a book probably when I was 9 an the things I wanted to accomplish before I was 18. I had this intuition and this belief for a very very long time that I was going to disappear by the time I was 18. Gratefully I have not,.. hurrah? Anyways lately things that I had written are being accomplish one way or another!!, Mostly by the forces of the universe. I kinda love it, but I sort of believe I must  continue in oblivion. That all of “this” is just happening, because it sorta just is. Although I feel like this force is limited and that if i “use it all up” , by the time I am older and need it. It wont be there..but I guess I must just let everything fall the way it wants to, and just be happy, I guess…